You guys its official I’m afraid of porn! Ugh so its been about 4 months since I’ve had some peen and the struggle is real but whatever. I decided to turn some porn on and while it does arouse me I feel like it also takes the joy away. Like porn is just mad annoying sometimes.
Ok so when I was done watching the porn I went to sleep and chillllllllllle! I had a freaking pornmare! Omg I thought it was real life. I don’t remember the major details, but I do know multiple men were “raping” me while I was in my dream. I felt like a porn actress it was really horrible. I wanted them to stop, but they wouldn’t and I even wished I was dreaming and I knew I was, but just couldn’t wake up. When I finally woke up a few long dream minutes later I was so relieved. I may be done with the porn for a while guys.
strippernotes 
I daresay you were watching the wrong type of porn! You might have a much better experience by googling: porn for women, feminist porn, ethical porn and can even look up “couples porn.”
There are female directors who are filming with a focus on women’s needs, interests and pleasure. You can start with something like “The Liberation of Anna Lee” directed by Jackie St. James. Something like that *shouldn’t* give you nightmares…if it did I would agree that you should steer clear of anything porny!
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you may be right because the typlical xnxx or pornhub is just a female disrespect sanctuary and that may be what was causing me fear. I was definitely watching a gang bang and in theory it sounded liberating to be a woman with so much male attention, but it was just poorly directed and no affectionate attention shown towards the woman and that’s what I like. I’m still a little shaken from the dream, but I’ll look that up when I’m ready lol
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I’m a man and i do feel the same lately, i think what you suggested that that type of porn available on website could be the reason. The different is when i see such i dont feel like im getting rapped but instead people who i love.
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You know what I’m a stripper, and I see people with all kinds of sexual things going on, and I even think about some really odd things sometimes. I think it is the type of porn that is promoted. Now I stick to regular porn. No incest, gay (not my thing), teen, anything else wild. I even don’t like interracial very much (my opinion again) I just stick to regular fantasies like trainer at the gym, yoga is my new thing lolllll. I think all that weird out of the way stuff is just the gateway to evil thoughts. Better to keep it light like its supposed to be, not involving all these other people in our real lives.
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