So today I wipe myself after I pee, and I see this pinkish light spotting lol. I’ve experienced this a few time so I know it can be a few things. I have also had cysts on my ovaries, and that causes the same thing, I could be stressed, and that could be triggering it. Once I spotted for 40 days lol, then I went to the doctor, and found out it was cysts on my ovaries. I then started eating healthier, and it went away in a few weeks. I could also not be eating healthy enough. There’s nothing like illness to kick in that healthy eating. Anyway if its not that then I could be pregnant.
As you guys know I was celibate for 8 months then I had sex with one man about three weeks ago, and a week after that I had sex with another man a week after that. The first one I was drunk, and it was kind of unexpected. I wanted to, but not really, and as you also know I said I did not intend to continue to have sex with him, and I did not. The next is a guy I met at work. I like him lol. We are both kinda thrown off tho lol . Anyway he lives in Phoenix, Arizona, and he comes in town from Monday – Thursday. He’s also flaky, and I don’t like that. I haven’t had sex with him again either, but I’ve hung out with both guys since. The second man is different. Its hard to explain him, but I’ll try. Ok he’s Tall, dark skin, he has a little facial hair, a little on the thicker side, but he’s tall so its spread out. He did tell me that he lost 50 lbs, but his eating habits aren’t the best, but I know he’s trying. Ok he also own this software company. He dresses nice too. I really like that. He picked me up super late, and I was prepared to be very angry, and I still was, but I wasn’t expecting him to look that good. The day we had sex he was wearing a tee and jeans and when he picked me up yesterday he was wearing a fitted metallic grey, dark grey or black pants, and black shoes lol. Girl I’m weak. I can’t resist a well dressed man. Its like just being wrapped in a nice package. I want to unwrap it lol. So these men are both good fathers, and I’ll be fine. I also intend to work. No woman really wants to work, but hopefully if I pregnant its by the second guy. He expressed wanting to be married, and he feels I’m indecisive. Idk, but if I am pregnant I feel like I want to keep it. I had a conversation with guy 2, and he says we can still be good friends. He’s wealthy too so that helps. If its by the 1st guy my baby will be born into an African family lol girl. i don’t mind, but idk how that’s going to be. I know its about the child, but I need to be comfortable too. I trust the fathers tho. Ok so I don’t want to test myself yet, because it may be too early so I’ll wait another week. I wouldn’t mind being a single mother, but I don’t want to be. If its by the 1st guy idk, we may have to co-parent. As you know if you really follow me I have been pregnant and had a non surgical abortion, and I used medications to induce it. I’ve considered doing that again, idk. I remember both guys definitely pulling out, but you never know. I don’t feel the same this time as I did the first time tho. I feel better. I feel less stressed. The original guy I got pregnant by was not very accommodating tho. I paid for everything, and he didn’t even pick me up from my home. I had to ride the train to meet him smh. So lonely I was. I didn’t regret the abortion either. I was relieved, but this time is different. I wouldn’t mind keeping it. I’m not telling anyone, but yall until I figure out what’s going on.
Anyway …. wish me the best yall idk what’s going on, but I’m here for it.