The Strip Club Is Full of Pedophiles!

This is going to be a really quick blog, but its on my mind so I’m gonna write it.

First of all there are lots of sexual abuse victims everywhere and I’m sure the strip club is no exception. Even when I was a very small child like 4 or 5 I was exposed to sexual behavior and thought it was normal. My parents have no idea of this either and its not something that’s always floating at the top of my head either its just kind of in the way I am. I say this to say saturday I was at work dancing for this stinky breath fat 50 something year old black man who  was bragging about taking his daughter on as shopping spree when he should be bragging about getting her some tutoring in school or something with more substance. I I was stroking his ego making him feel like he did something great when actually I could care less about purchasing children material things. He has a 12 year old daughter and I’m sure he never see’s her, because he also told me he had some Mexican girlfriend and he’s playing daddy with her kids too. Sounds exactly like my dad. The only difference is I stopped asking my dad for money, but I do accept gifts. I just want him to feel how much of an unloved loser he is and he can try to make himself ignore that, but its a fact. The man I was talking to even said he feels as if his daughter doesn’t appreciate the things he does for her and I’m sure they have no real relationship since he thinks a relationship is buying your kids whatever they want.

So it was very busy Saturday, but the men weren’t spending so I had to get it out of them. I ended up dancing for him and I was very shocked that this man was really trying to press his penis up my butt thru his pants. He was complaining that I needed to stop moving because he was going on soft. This is so disgusting to me as I recall what this man said. He said he couldn’t help it because I was so young. Mind you I’m 25, but I look like could be 18. When men lust over how young I am or look this just disgusts me. These are overly full grown middle aged and senior citizen men of all nationalities. I really understand now that strip clubs are a place for the sexually deviant men who want to hide their secret lust for underage women and the “proud fathers” are the most suspicious to me. I know men who have never stepped foot in a strip club so I know all men don’t go, but that still doesn’t mean they aren’t pedophiles at the same time, but some of the strip club pedos are like feigns and most them are alcoholics and drug addicts whether they want to admit it or not. People always wonder how strippers have the mindset that we have which is get whatever you can out of any man even if you don’t like him and have to lie him, because even though he won’t say it he wants to have sex with you and its up to you choose carefully who you lay down with and make it well worth your efforts. I’m sure most women don’t know what to do in these situations and I don’t admittedly didn’t either, but now I do! These  pedophiles think the strip club is a place for them to be free, but I’m not a prostitute. Even for those few minutes this guy’s penis against my butt thru his pants disgusts me to the core. That’s how rape victims feel when  their selfish disgusting predators rape them. The rapist think’s he should be entitled to a few minutes of this woman against her will and she should get over it because it was just a few minutes. Be careful of selfish people who think that way and show interest in you. They may just want to manipulate you. These selfish pedophiles don’t care if the young women are uncomfortable and this is why I hustle and trick every single man in there. I make him think I’m heaven’s angel then I take their money and disappear in minutes. Even if you aren’t a stripper you should still use this mentality because men don’t change when they leave the strip club they just hide their ways better. They try to put on a perfect face of they have a wife, children (especially children under 18), a successful business and anything else that makes them feel entitled. Some of these fools make $10/hour and think they are entitled to some young girl’s pussy. These men really do think women are not human and just tools and this is exactly why I have zero respect for men who go to the strip club looking to do anything else except be entertained. They deserve to have all their money taken and still be rejected.

Ladies always speak up for yourself even when you feel like its your job to just shut up and be abused and taken advantage of don’t! Speak up all the time when you feel someone is trying to force you into doing something you totally do not want to do. As dancers sometimes the men try to make us feel like you need to do whatever they say do or they won’t give you money, honey there are a million more men who will I guarantee you that and if you settle for the one who violates you, but gives you money you will never find the man truly for you and you will grow to think being sexually taken advantage of by your husband for money and the day you stand up for yourself will be the day he leaves you and you will have yourself to blame because you should have known your worth and never accepted that treatment. People aren’t even ready for relationships at all these days so I recommend fixing yourself before you get in one or find someone who is more than happy to work with you.

Well that’s it for now you guys bye 🙂

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School Update! + Academic Adviser Crush Update!

So since I discovered I had a crush on my academic adviser I definitely didn’t want to unprofessionally influence the situation any further than I had. If I didn’t tell you guys already I googled him and read some of his dissertation lol yeah. There is also one lonely picture of him om google and I looked at that from time to time. I didn’t want to just let my mind wonder and be totally mind boggled and unfocused when I saw him again. So today is friday and I had 4 hours of tutoring with 3 other students so my professor who is happily married to her husband treated us to pizza and my adviser came up and brought us soda and water. The only reason I’m writing about it is because he brought so much my professor insisted we take the extra home so I did.  Here I go again! Thinking that this was all for me lol. Thinking omg I know you brought this for everyone, but in my mind it was just for me. That’s so typical of me. So now I have all these beverages lol. I’m gonna drink them when I’m studying to wake me up.  I do believe that everything happens for a reason and maybe this is the universe’s way of giving me what I think is a gift from someone that I totally admire.  Ok now on to the school update!

 

I am deathly afraid of failing so I have been working diligently and I’m satisfied with the progress I have made and am making. I actually understand things I thought I never would have understood. The only difference between knowing and not knowing is the amount of effort you put in when nobody is looking. Learning does not start or stop in a classroom. Learning is a part of life wherever we are and home should be the ultimate learning sanctuary. To be honest learning feels very magical once you do it over and over again. My parents always said get and education, but I never saw them do any of this. Even my dad claims to know all this, but never dedicated real time to anything long enough to see fruits of any labor he did himself besides having a job. Nothing wrong with just having a job, but don’t make me feel unaccomplished if I’m not a rocket scientist. I know parents want the best for their kids, but at some point parents have to let go of the dreams they have for their children which are really just things that involve more work than the parents ever did and let children be free to do what they love and make a difference in the world the way they see fit. There will be enough doctors, architects and so on. We need more free thinkers who will not be afraid to be different! Well that’s all I have to say…. you guys have a great weekend I intend to 🙂

Being Paid To Spit On Men: Money Moves

So after I made my way around the club a big tall man walked in. He’s from new your and kinda reminded me of a more docile version of Jay Z. You actually never know what some people are into before you meet them. I did a couple of dances for him and he had some requests, but he would not touch me which I don’t mind, but I did notice. He also requested a certain dance style which I also didn’t mind. We made a little conversation about hanging out, but I didn’t know what he expected, because the universe and yall know that (say it with me) I DON’T HAVE SEX FOR MONEY. I have to make sure I know this more than anyone and make it very clear, because no man is turning down sex. Especially in a situation where they are paying to hang out with a stripper. The NO SEX has to be made gracefully clear and you decide what grace is for you. For me I just like to smile and tell them we’re hanging out for money and I don’t do anything else. They can’t make you have sex that’s obviously rape and you have to be smart enough to not just go off with any guy. So I told him we could go to dinner, but I wasn’t that hungry and he wasn’t either, but dinner was my best offer. He then said he didn’t expect sex, but there was something he wanted me to do and it had nothing to do with sex. He was very reluctant to tell me as well. He asked if I was ok with role play and I was like hmmmm what kind of role play? Then I said what kind of role play and he said dominant and submissive role play. I told him yeah that was fine, but I am not a submissive in this type of relationship. He said of course and then he asked if I was comfortable spitting on him and I didn’t think it sounded that bad so I said yeah, them he asked if I would talk really mean to him and I agreed to do that, because I already do that to most of the men I know in real life to an extent. And the extent is when they do what I say I stop being mean for a while. Anyway fast forward to us being at his house which is an apartment he just moved into with his 20 year old son who was sleeping across the apartment. He didn’t have a bed in there which was fine with me, because I tried to be courteous and take a nap at this customer’s house ….. oh hell no. Never again. Matter fact never spend the night over a man’s house that keeps pressuring you to have sex, because if you didn’t want to have sex you may end up having sex. Just bein honest. If you’re dancing and you are with a customer always have your phone charged and your phone charger so you can call an uber on the spot. I literally had to order an uber last week and my phone was on 1% . I was overly grateful for that uber, because the man had the nerve to ask for the money back… yeah right! I got tf up and went outside to wait on my uber. That was after I made this guy pay me a couple hundred bucks and feed me. He was complaining about how he had a baby on a break from the love of his life and how he was love sick and all that. Now why would I have a sex with a man who has all this baggage going on and he’s white so that’s not my lane at all. But anyway back to the man that paid me to spit and step on him. So we got to hi’s apartment and he spread a sheet on the floor and laid on it with his clothes on. He looked like a big baby and he has to be 250+lbs and at least 6’0 tall. I requested I spit on him so I did and he also wanted me to spit in his face, on his clothes, step on him, put my feet on his face, and talk down to him. He was asking me leading questions like am I better than him, because he likes that. I’m not gonna lie I kinda needed a little power trip especially since I have no control over my adviser. I actually have lots of control over the men in the strip club, but that’s not real life. I’m constantly thinking of intellectual things mixed with sexual things abut my adviser lol. I’m always amazed at how I manage to pick out the right people to get money from. AlI know is that when you come prepared and focused nothing can stop you.

We did that for an hour then I called an uber and left. I will admit that you have to have the kind of personality to take control the way these men like and these men pay lots of money to be dominated. Its a great way to make money and not dance. I saw a dominatrix on Tyra Banks show and idk why Tyra Banks was shunning her so much. The woman was basically an actress she wasn’t a sex worker in my opinion. I honestly feel like people throw the term sex worker around too loosely. In my opinion stripping is not sex work, because I don’t have sex. A prostitute is a sex worker and a prostitute can be a stripper, but all strippers aren’t prostitutes. I actually feel like the route I take is smarter no matter what people say about what I do I  keep all of my clothes on and when i take them off its just so the men can LOOK! Not engage in. I have strict rules and those rule have made me lots of money. I see some white girls in my club giving $50 blow jobs and I literally can’t wrap my head around that one. $50 sounds like a tip to me, not payment for a blowjob.

If any aspiring doms would like tips we can arrange some kind of payment for my tutoring so you can be empowered to make money without having sex. Just comment your email on this blog and we can arrange something.

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Know Yourself: I Don’t Like, I LOVE

So I was sitting around thinking about why I feel so passionately about people when I like them and yes lust may have something to do with it, but that’s still not an answer for why I do. I’ve come to the conclusion that liking something or someone is a waste of time. When I like something or someone I love that thing or person. Take school for instance. I can’t just like school. I will get bored if I do that. Aside from my fine ass adviser I really do love school. I love reading, I love writing, I love studying, I love knowing what comes next in the subject and all of that so I love it. To like something is to only be in half way, to be luke warm and unsure. I’m 25 years old and at this point I’m not making anymore unsure decisions. Either I love it or I leave it alone. That goes for people, things and every aspect of life. In my mind love is the strongest energy form and when you know what to put your love into and what to leave alone that builds more energy.

Don’t let these men give you excuses about why its ok to just have casual sex and tell you its fun and all that. They don’t tell you the rush of emotions you will be left with to deal with by yourself after they are satisfied physically and even mentally and you are left depleted, because you gave loving energy to someone who did not love you. And believe me what goes around comes around so do not worry about that. These days I have been feeling very light and anxiety free even if I smoke weed or not. I honestly feel like all the anxiety I carried from loving people who did not love me have been delivered right back to them! I don’t even have to call them to see how bad they are doing. That’s the beautiful thing about energy. I can just feel it! Not that I’m wishing bad energy and anxiety on them, but that’s how energy works. It can’t be destroyed only transferred and I have the feeling I have transferred all the bad energy back to people that dumped their negative energy on me and it feels really good to be free of that.

I tend to be very afraid and intimidated by my emotions sometimes, because they are very strong, but when I articulate them to myself I’m easier to understand. Now I realize that I can’t just go around thinking I can “like” somebody. There really is no such thing.  If someone is stringing you along and telling you how much they like you, but don’t love you then you should get out of that situation immediately, because they are feeding you shit and calling it sugar. Instead walk in the direction of things and people that love you and show you love!

Now don’t confuse any and every nice deed and gesture for love like did in the past. Be smart and really recognize when someone loves you and they are making an effort to equally reciprocate the love are showing them. I am a huge fan of giving people the energy they give me. If you give me 2 star love them I may either not even entertain that or just give you your raggedy 2 star love back, but if someone is giving me 5 star love please believe I am going all in and giving them the 5 star love they deserve and if they ever stop giving me five star love then they can expect that same decline. Men should be leaders anyway so this should be simple for women to do, but if you are a man this also goes for you. If a woman only calls you when she needs something then call her when you need something. If she doesn’t answer, then don’t answer for her just show her the same energy she showed you.

Lastly I just want to remind everyone to love what you do don’t just like it. Love who you are with don’t just like them. And only include yourself in situations where you are loved or can create some love.

 

Why Pretty Hurts

So I just got done listening to “pretty hurts” by beyonce and I listened to the same song when I was in San Diego with my ex and things were going horrible between us, and once again I allowed a hurt person to use me because I was also hurt and it was just a mess. Never look for happiness in someone else if you don’t have it in yourself first and never let an unhappy person make you think that you are their #1 source of happiness. They should also have happiness within themselves to give to you also.

Being young we can think that the world is our oyster especially if we are pretty and that gets pretty girls hurt every time. Everyone on this earth knows we are all getting older. If you’re a senior in high school there will be freshmen and same for college. There will always be someone “prettier” so its best to love yourself for your inner qualities. You may feel prettier than someone’s wife or girlfriend right now, but if he think’s his last girl is replaceable then more than likely he has the same mindset about you. Pretty can make us think that won’t happen, but it can. Never let your prettiness be your defining factor. Looks fade and you will be embarrassed that you wasted all that time doting on looks that faded instead of being happy and enriching your mind for years and years to come. If you are truly pretty then it will show from the inside out.  And nothing looks funnier than a old lady with nothing, but pictures and stories of how pretty she used to look, but no personal accomplishments and I know things happen to women like single motherhood and being victims of abusive/lying men, but be the strong woman who see’s that yes you are pretty, but you are also smart, talented, ambitious, disciplined and dedicated to greatness!

I Have A Serious Crush On My Academic Adviser at School

So I’m 25 years old and this is my last semester in school for my Associates Degree in Business Administration. I’ve had some minor issues and I’ve had some support from my adviser and other school faculty and I am very appreciative for that. I just met him last semester so I could get some advisement from him and he gave me some very great news which is that I was only one semester away from graduating. I was very happy to hear that and I guess him telling me the good news already made me feel some sort of special connection to him since it seems my friends and family could care less besides the occasional “good job”, I prefer silence than passive responses. So that was last semester and I never thought that I would need him this semester, but I did and he did some minor favors for me which is his job, but I was still very happy with that.

I have been thinking about why I like him so much and I realize its the savior mentality that most women have, specifically dancers. Not only that, but my past relationships have been very mentally and emotionally abusive so I think I’m also just looking for some genuine comfort and I haven’t met that again yet. He seems very comfortable tho and I just imagine cuddling up next to him lol. Most of us dancers are not close to our fathers so we look for leadership in other men and that can be any man. Now my adviser does happen to be a handsome, well dressed older man who and I believe I did see a ring on his finger so this is gonna be another doozy for me, because I definitely do not date married men even tho I am highly attracted to this man. Now I don’t go to his office and stalk him everyday, but I really want to make any excuse to see him ugh. I love having crushes and I think I asked for this one, but I won’t be acting on it. I was thinking about why it would be a bad decision to flirt with him and I realized I would only be disappointing myself smh, because I know for a fact I would be expecting way more than a married man would be able to follow thru on so I won’t even play myself like that. Instead I will just dream and be the best person I can be in this invisible relationship lol. That includes making my new invisible boyfriend proud of my accomplishments including eating healthy, being clean, being neater, more organized, sexy, fun, smart, studious, disciplined and whatever else I think it takes to make myself whole to be in a relationship. Now while I’m not interested in a real relationship I will certainly enjoy this mental relationship I will have with my imaginary boyfriend and at the end of the semester I definitely intend to make us proud lol.

I know I sound crazy, but I know I’m not ready for a relationship and this man is also married, so I would rather use my imagination than making unsmart decisions that will only set me back even further emotionally. I’ve been thinking a lot about sex  and its energy connection lately and I cannot deny those facts. As much as I love sex I love being happy more so I want the sex and the happiness. I am willing to compromise sex for happiness, but I am not willing to compromise happiness for sex. I say that to say I’m horny af and I’m gonna be doing a lot of imagining for god knows how long! lol I know I’ll at least be a very successful woman with all this time on my hands.

“Young Women” Vs “Not So Young Women” In The Strip Club!

So I’m sorry to burst your bubble guys, but stripping is a fantasy and not all of the young dancers understand that. These girls come to work to make friends and they get into all kinds of drama. When you are a smart stripper you come in focused, spot the money as soon as possible, get the money as soon as possible and leave as soon as possible! Stripping is fast money. Everything happens so fast so if you don’t have that in mind you may not make any money, because what guys usually do is talk talk talk you to death, get their mental rocks off and don’t pay you. A smart stripper keeps the main topic at hand which is money! Never let anything cloud the main objective! In the dancing game nothing matters, but the money. Once you have the money you win. There is no competition when you are in you are making you own money.

People really really underestimate the power of being focused and being in a constant state of  high energy no matter what you are going thru.

 

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The young dancers can feel superior all they want and I used to think I was more valuable when I was younger, but that is such a dumb way of thinking. People who are hung up on how young you are want to use you for sex point blank so make sure you especially milk them for all they have. If they can’t see past your age then you don’t need that person in your life unless they are giving you money of course. We have been taught to age shame so much we think its normal, but all of us will be old and gray one day so its better we have confidence and love ourselves at every age in life and see the blessing it is to age and receive wisdom. If you want to be young your whole life you will continue to make the same mistakes you made when you were young and dumb. Welcome the wisdom that comes with age. I couldn’t even imagine being as dumb as I was just last year. I literally learn something new everyday and every year that makes me a better person and helps my income grow even if I am dancing.

I also want you guys to remember that in the strip club everybody has a different “fetish” some older men like younger women, some younger men like older women (and spend lots of money on them), white men like black girls, black men like white girls and the list goes on and on. Age rarely limits someone from being attracted to you. Even when you are young all the people you meet won’t be attracted to you so its better to focus on the ones that are attracted to you and swim in that pool. My very wise teacher who’s photo I have on my desk told our class “go where you are celebrated, not tolerated.” And especially as you age some people will be  left behind trying to stay behind mentally and when you see that just know when to elevate yourself whether it feels like you are upgrading or not. And if you are not being held back then you are elevating.

I would be a fool to go to work thinking that every younger woman there is my competition. That does me no good. I’d rather focus 100% on myself and my money.  I love young people, but they are not my competition at this point in my life. I am my only competition.

And young people: sit down and learn something, myself included. Girls in the strip club tend to be very independent and have no guidance, because we usually raised ourselves or something like that. However you can make more money when you be quiet and learn something as opposed to thinking to know everything. If a young girl was respectful and ask me how I make my money 1st of all that would be my decision to let her know, because really I could keep all my secrets to myself and let her learn the hard way like I did, but if she was cool I would have no problem sharing some words of encouragement with her and sending some love her way so she can make money, but a lot of these young loud mouth girls will never get my help. They can sink for all I care and if they keep hating on me I’m just gonna keep making them more mad by making more money than everybody effortlessly like I always do 🙂

Well that’s it you guys! Let me know if you have had any clashes with people because of your age and how did they treat you based on how young or old you are.

Success Vultures

Success Vultures! I’m working on a post about friends and that slightly tie in to this topic. I was thinking about success and the people around me and I have come to realize that even if someone around me is doing well and successful that still does not mean that they are rooting for me, they could still be plotting against me and I don’t even know it.

You guys know I don’t make friends at work and more than ever I am realizing there is no such thing as a friend. In 2017 I’m not even sure what to call these people these days. A lot of people are like zombies just walking around with dead souls and living only to feed on unsuspecting people so never be fooled my anyone.

I have learned to be weary of everyone and be prepared to protect my intellect in any situation. Being aware of this I notice people trying to probe me more and more. I’ve always known I was a talented and interesting person, but it wasn’t until I began being more secretive and discussing my dreams with my friends that I realize there is no such thing as friends. Friends in 2017 just want to be all in your business and know all of your plans so they can beat you to the punch of try to achieve something that know you have been working on or interested in. Friends in 2017 should be someone who is already on a confident path of their own and not someone who is trying to use you as a climbing ladder on their way up to the top, because please believe me even your boyfriend or girlfriend can be secretly jealous of your success so choose your mate wisely as well. I don’t want to be in competition with my life partner I want us to trust each other, and be open & honest so we can grow instead of holding one another back.

A success vulture will be someone who watches you work and had things to say, but doesn’t want to do any of the work.

A success vulture will also jump on bandwagons that may counter your solutions or have no logic, but seem to constantly counter your success or logic that you have proven to be effective.

Once again I would like to remind you guys that success vultures can be your mate, spouse, family, friend, stranger or co-worker so be aware, don’t be paranoid tho lol. There are good people out there, but they are harder to find clearly because they are the minority and of more value so of course they will be harder to find.

Enjoy life and remember to guard yourself like you are worth trillions of dollars.

Why I No Longer Have Casual Sex

Another short blog, learning lesson and story for your guys!

Ok so as i say over and over again thru out this blog I am single and dearly working on myself. Thru my growth I have realized connections between myself, sex, men, relationships, expectations and all that I just have to change. There is no way I will ever live a happy life doing the same things that have been making me unhappy for years over and over again.

As women we try to rationalize why we can have pre-marital and casual sex like men and to be honest even men suffer from casual sex more than they admit. Casual sex also holds a lot of men back. Without getting too deep I would like to remind you all that sex in an energy exchange and having sex with someone and no truly knowing their energy can be mentally and even physically harmful for you besides getting and STD. Energy is everything and the sooner you realize this the quicker you will stop wasting time having casual sex.

Now I have to admit I LOVE sex! I love it. I think I confuse my love for sex with a man having love for me. For most men they have casual sex, because most women are not aware that they are having loads of energy dumped on them. A man who doesn’t tell you the things that make him vulnerable is not a man that you should be having sex with, because as a woman we are most vulnerable when we are having sex so allow  man to enter you sacred spiritual space and know nothing about him except he has a big house, nice car and fat wallet are very dangerous even if he allows you to enjoy those “benefits”. Now I do understand for most women money is a fair trade for sex and I agree that a man should be able to financially support, but for that to be the only basis of the relationship is selling yourself short big time. There will be more opportunities to make more money, but the way you feel about the decisions you make may change the way you see yourself far beyond the act and that just sounds like a waste of emotions and energy to me.

Back to the story.

So I met a guy at the club a few weeks ago and we had a bit in common I guess. He seemed business minded and I later found out he comes from a family of business owners so that is no surprise. I really want to take my entertainment career more serious so at this point in my life I am actively seeking management and an agent. He is not qualified to be and agent, but I figured he could handle being a manager, but I was wrong lol. Now a little bit about this guy. He’s 25, tall, dark, handsome, 2 kids by two women at the same time, never been married, but his parents are still married. To be honest I’m not ready to date or have sex even tho I want to rush out there and do both I’m just not ready and I’ve been forcing myself to be ready for the longest and I’m tired. I’m all about focusing on myself and securing the bag right now.

So he randomly called me and I answered not knowing who it was, but he offered to buy me dinner and yall know i’m a complete sucker for food! lol Feed me and you may never be able to get rid of me lol jk, but that’s a good way to get me around you is offering me food lol especially food that I like! So he picked me up, we handled some things he had to take care of, got some drinks, got dinner, and went back to his place. He was flirting with me the whole time and that’s normal for a guy who has never had you sexually to do so I wasn’t impressed. I didn’t plan on spending the night, but I was a little tipsy and a lot tired and I kind of didn’t want to leave.

See this is the part of the story where I usually make the same mistake I’ve been making for years and DON’T! lol

I thought to myself …. Men use women for sex unapologetically and I am not obligated to have sex with this guy no matter the situation. We slept in the same bed I cuddled with him like he was my boyfriend and that was great lol. I kinda felt bad for not having sex which is crazy, but I did and even now I kind of feel like he feels like I played him, but girl I’d rather be the player than the one getting played smh. Especially when you know someone is intending on playing a game with you. He was offering me an arrangement for sex and I work in the cash industry so if you don’t have cash I’m not doin nothin first of all. Now if he had decent amount of money in cash that may have made the situation a little different, because he is very handsome and I do believe he has some bomb D, but the way I feel about myself is 1 million times more important than sex. Its funny, because when we are hot and heated all that logic goes out of the window, but I have just learned too much and come too far to throw it all away for pleasuring a man who seems will never be pleasured and he sure as hell isn’t concerned with pleasuring me.

Another thing to keep in mind for my strippers is if you have sex with a man that you met at a strip club there are high chances that he will come back to your job and make you feel disrespected by showing you no attention and not giving you money. That’s the worst feeling in my personal opinion. To see someone you allowed inside of you and to have your ultimate energy to completely ignore you like yall never met. If you flip that situation and agree with yourself not to have casual sex especially with customers you hold all the power and whether they show you love or not you will be fine and even not care. Maybe you will feel sorry for the poor girl that does fall for it, but don’t let it be you that someone is feeling sorry for, because of a poor decision you chose to make based on fear of not having money or wanting a man.

Lastly I want you guys to understand what “escapism” is. In my own words escapism is when you use something that feels good such as sex, drugs, alcohol or whatever to escape from facing your reality and how you can positively grow from not escaping your reality. Now everyone’s reality may be different. Some of us may have family issues, personal issues with laziness, loneliness, financial issues etc. Sex, drugs, alcohol ect will do nothing to improve your issues and indulging in these things may prolong these issues. Addiction is said to be irrational and I understand that, but at some point we have to get a grip on our real lives and see where we need to change and for me not having casual sex is something that brings me pride, joy, self determination, self respect, and more.

I have all the same thoughts as all the ladies. We feel if we don’t have sex maybe the guy won’t be interested and that’s a risk we don’t want to take as hard as it is to find a man out here sometimes us ladies end up subconsciously selling ourselves short when we think we are getting a good deal from a good man. I think 9/10 we are poorly poorly settling on a wishing star thinking we can shape someone else’s view on life when we will only ever be able to shape our own life and maybe inspire someone to do the same but that’s no guarantee so ima do me and focus on that.

So what are yall’s thoughts on casual sex? Ladies and Gents included. Do you have casual sex, will you reconsider having casual sex and how has sex changed the way you feel about yourself and views on others?

BEING NICE GETS YOU NOWHERE!

I used to think I should be kind and sweet like my parents taught me, but I kept getting ran over. I could not figure out why I was so sweet and kept getting screwed over. I kept giving my loving and sweet energy to dead situations which were in reality very abusive for me.

I got a little closer with my older sister and she doesn’t have a perfect life, but her life is perfect for her. My sister is young, smart and beautiful, but that’s not a guarantee to  get you the life you want, but the more I am around my sister the more I realize she takes no bs! Not from anyone ever.

I told you guys about the guy I hung out with all night and he promised me some money, but after the night was over and he didn’t get what he wanted he refused to pay me which kind of pissed me off, but I didn’t let it affect me that much. I also really took that as a learning lesson to never be that nice again. I actually notice a shift in how men treat me once I begin to treat me once I begin to be nice. I don’t even call it being mean anymore I call it demanding my respect. People love people who love and respect themselves and they also love to run over people who they suspect do not love or respect themselves.

I have simply learned to give people the same energy they give me. If you are giving me a lazy energy them I am going to give you that same energy. If you are giving me a trying energy them I am going to give you that same energy. If you give me an angry energy them I am going to give you that SAME ENERGY!!!!!!! People need to realize when you approach someone with some energy be ready get that same energy back if not them one of us will be unbalanced energetically and I never want that person to be me. I have spent a lot of my time wondering why  people can treat me the way they treat me even though I give them all I have and that’s the problem. I should have never given anyone all of my attention especially a person who refuses to reciprocate. Relationships are better when you learn how to give people the energy they give you and give people the energy that you want to receive and if they neglect to match your energy (given it is positive) then notice that and from now on give them the energy  they deserve!