Why Men Think You Are Annoying

Are you that girl who always misses her boyfriend? You get upset when he doesn’t do the little small things you like so that leads you to be all up in his face and getting on his nerves which you perceive as annoying to him. He picks up on these insecurities an that is what is annoying to him. Let me tell you a secret. Men like to miss you too! I know we all love that burning feeling of missing someone. Especially if we really miss them and it doesn’t turn out to be a disappointment. The older I get the more I realize money does buy a lot of things I love and enjoy, but money can never ever buy happiness. Happiness is one of those things that you either have or you don’t and to truly have it with someone is very very special. The more single I get the more I realize that having someone who loves you the way you love them is a very special thing and of you feel like you have that with someone then tell and don’t be afraid of looking stupid, because at least you are real. Now with all that being said if you know in your heart that you have happiness with this person then you should feel secure. Secure people are focused on their own lives and living life to the fullest is not waiting by the phone for him to text or call you especially after you have been together for a while. Men want to have amazing things to say about their woman even if they say my woman is a stripper who goes to school full time, pays her own bills, travels, creates digital content herself and runs her own eBay store. Ladies sometimes our men can seem so amazing that we forget about ourselves and our talents. Men are lured in by the feminine talent you posses to create a beautiful life, but if he gets with you and you let yourself go it will all look like smoke and mirrors and he’ll become disinterested and you will also be disappointed in yourself for letting yourself go. Fisrt of all men are men and they don’t understand women stuff anyway so they would love for you to light the way and the right man will support you if he loves you. And if he doesn’t support you continue to support yourself and I promise the right man will eventually come along.

So what do I know about any or this? Well I’m a woman first of all and I know how it feels to like someone so much that it literally annoys them. Just like you you’re partner is human, but when you put them on these super human pedestals your whole life can start to shrink that moment. Not only is f frustrating for you, but its frustrating for your man as well. Men also have a hard time in life and sometimes they just want to snuggle up next to you and be babied as well. Sometimes it can be selfish of a woman to expect a man to pick up the weight financially if he cannot do that and there is simply no way around it. If you don’t live your life to the fullest and expect your man to take care of you fully you are accepting a life of servitude except of course if you have children, but I’m speaking to the single ladies with no children. I actually have no problem serving my man as long as he knows I am not a maid or a cook and that’s where maintaining yourself comes in so he knows who you are and who you are not.

I know its hard when you love someone to give them space, but too much time together can suffocate even the lovey doveiest love birds and on the flip side do not go out of your way to ignore your partner to prove a point. If you are ignoring someone for a response and a reaction that may backfire on you, but if you are really hurt by something they did and you don’t want to speak to them that’s another thing. If I’m ignoring someone I don’t expect them to call me ever again in life and if they make an effort to contact me then I reconsider if I’m feeling that way.

With all that being said please do not lose yourself in a relationship and become that annoying girlfriend who cannot live without her boyfriend. I know the penis can be good and make you want to lay under him all day, but be strong and let him be the one sniffing your butt, not the other way around. There is a such thing as natural spiritual gender roles and men need to chase something and they don’t like chasing fake food so be yourself! And love yourself

Now that I’m daydreaming about that good love he gave me yesterday I want to be annoying too, but I’ll save it for sunday, because I have to be serious until then.

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I Am Speechless

You guyssssss I have obviously been going thru a lot in my life over the past few years and lord knows I’ve grown a lot. I mentioned a 41 year old man that I was “dating” before I started dancing and I was just gaga over him. I’ve cried over him, been stupid and all that, but above it all I stopped talking to him and stuck to my guns and finished school and secured my finances. He’s always been a disappointing “boyfriend” literally unreliable as i can believe. After three years I finally finally stopped caring and chose to focus on my own life no matter however painful that was idk why. When i thought about him in the past tense it was never good and I didn’t care to pursue anything with him any further. I had him on the block list for a few months and I did learn to live without him, because all he made himself was sex and let’s be honest ladies men are just as replaceable as women after a while. I removed him from the block list and then the text message came. “I miss you (my real name)” ugh I was literally so happy. Then I was confused and didn’t respond The shock and unwanted disappointment were too much stronger than the happiness so I just told myself I could continue to ignore him if he was  just going to text me, because I’m sick of the texting its just wack and childish. Long story short he calls me later on that day and of course I answer ugh. I had a lot of time to think about him and I think I still feel the same way which is confused, but definitely all in for whatever ride he’s trying to take me on now lol. He was supposed to come over this morning at 9:00 and he was a little early. As soon as he got here he started kissing me. I kind tried to get him to stop, but not really. I was thinking a few nights ago that not only have I not had sex in months I also haven’t kissed anybody and that was not something I wanted to do with anyone else. I love kissing him. He’s so soft and sweet and all that. I day dream about sex with him. I can see how sex and love are like drugs, because with other guy’s I’ve dated we would get drunk and have sex sometimes, but this is different. I always thought I was the kind of girl that guys would have sex with and leave and life really can be a self fulfilling prophecy if you feel that way about yourself. If you always feel like everything is wrong with you and nothing is wrong with the other person then you will always fail. Even when relationships fail no one person should be solely to blame, because we all have faults. I hate how society makes the woman feel like its something wrong with herself for allowing a man to have sex with her even if she LOVES it. I love having sex with him and it just brightened up my whole perception on the summer and life. If life is so bad I need this everyday. That may be unrealistic for the two of us, but sex definitely isn’t as bad as I was anticipating. I guess I always feel used after sex and not fulfilled and after all that good head he gave me there is no reason why shouldn’t have given him any cat. Lord knows  I came over and over and over again lol. Ugh the only thing now is the after math. Well I have no expectations and I thanked him for the dick so we’re good. We’ve been seeing each other for 3 years and at this point I’m not too sure about the future of this relationship, because he’s moving too slow, but we’ll see and this was some good dick he gave me lol.

The dick was so good I’m just sitting here in silence enjoying the day. I might even read a book lol. No social media or youtube unless its extremely relaxing lol. I love this feeling and I love having the happiness bottled up inside. I’m not going to share this relationship with anyone I’m deciding right now. My friends and family don’t care and want to see it fail, because they don’t understand or care about what makes me happy. I also am not putting it on social media, because I don’t have time for the haters. I love having our love in a bubble and I’m not going to let anyone disturb that with their opinions and all that. I’m still gonna pretend like I need some dick lol. This is where all that grace and class needs to activated, because my hoe alert is going off and I can only hoe for one man. Its too draining to be a real hoe.

 

My YouTube Crush Said My Real Name On A Live Stream: Here we go again

so if you guys did not know I AM A GEMINI! lol. My birthday is May 27 and I will be 25 this year. I hate how people are saying twenty fine its so lame. I’m just 25! A young fresh GROWN WOMAN. Who is smart, sexy, loves art, loves myself, love everything about life that has to do with creating and making money and that’s just about everything!

I did just take a little puff of my J too so I’m one a little, but  oh yeahhhhhh lemme get back to the story.

So even tho my crush gives me butterflies I still prevail and create content and he does too. I’m so inspired by him to do everything I want to do. I want his attention (purple smiling devil emoji)

I’m kind of having a power struggle in my mind tho. I want to focus on one guy, but I haven’t found one guy worth focusing on hence why I’m so distracted lol. I try to ignore his videos, but some of them I just like watching because of the content he makes and I know he knows what he’s doing. He’s about 32 and I just know he knows what a woman like me likes by now. So he did a live stream about some changes that he would be making on his channel and I wasn’t going to tune in, but i couldn’t help it. He was talking about how he wanted the subscribers his channel to behave themselves and don’t engage in malicious behavior. I feel like he knew I was on that Spongebob 24 hour live stream giving racists the business and I mean I was really going in lol. Just in a fun funny way he was saying please don’t tell people you will kill them and I would never do anything like that anyway unless i was in person lol. I wasn’t going to leave a comment, because I didn’t want to distract him, but I already know my presence is a distraction in general. So I went against my brain and left a comment and just said “I block all channels I don’t like” then he did the sexiest thing in the world and said my name, my real name. He just went on about how he wanted his channel to be a safe haven which is why he screens comments and then he said he wouldn’t want anyone trolling some other ladies and myself. I only left that one comment and left. I couldn’t lol. Now lets get some things in order that I understand. Him saying my name could just be one of his ways to gain more control of me as a “follower” or “subscriber”, he could also be playing the game with me. He probably likes to play too. Idk all I know is that’s the only contact I have had with him and he did a live stream that I kind missed on purpose, but he kinda just did a short one idk.

I will continue to also create content, because first of all he is inspiring me to speak my mind and I think that’s what I like about him the most. I was up all night just spewing out topics. Ughhhhhhhhh I want my crush to ignore me, but then again I don’t so maybe I’ll just stop commenting idk.  What do you guys think?

Family Business: I Had To Cut Off My Manipulative Grandmother Monetarily

If I’m gonna tell a story I’m going to tell the whole thing and you guys know I don’t hold back because why?

So my grandmother has two daughters one being my mom of course and the other being my aunt and both by the same man who never married her. My grandma is very light skin and so is my aunt, but my mom is brown skin. Colorism is  real thing in black families of you didn’t know. My mom also had the same issue with her two daughters and kinda did the opposite and favored my dark skin sister which is whatever to me I understand, but that still shouldn’t have happened anyway.

Long story short this blog post is about my 77 year old manipulative grandma who belittles my hard working mom and still puts her lazy paper hoarding, disgusting light skin daughter on a pedestal. She has 5 kids and 2 of them being by my mom’s ex fiance & another two by another one of my mom’s ex boyfriends and the last by a friend of my dad’s and my grandma never cared that my aunt did that to my mom. I always loved my grandma because she was my grandma and I guess she struggled as all black people do, but she also let my aunt mooch off of her and put down all the nice things my mom did for her I guess because she was jealous my mom is a better mom than her and actually loves her children and got my dad to marry her on top of that. I have never been close to my grandma for real because she also favored my  sister and I never really cared, but now my grandma is old and is having some property issues with this land she has inherited way before she even had children. I remember once when I was 9 years old my grandma took me and my sister to the mall and she got my sister a new pair of shoes and didn’t get mt any and it took everything for me to hold in my 9 year old tears. I was so sad and didn’t understand why she would buy my sister something and not me. Now I know it was one of my grandma’s manipulation tactics to put me  and my sister against each other the way she did my mom and aunt. That behavior subsequently made my aunt handicapped by the laziness of feeling like the entitled and privileged child and at 53 years old with 5 kids she barely raised she still feels the same way. She never even apologized to my mom for having kids by her fiance and lying to my youngest cousin’s dad for trying to pin those kids on him smh. My grandma basically raised my aunts kids, but clearly had her picks and chooses also and she chose to favor the boys who go in and out of jail. The only $100 tip I ever got working at Hooters I gave to my grandma the very next day to help pay taxes on her land and that was about 3 years ago. Now she owes the taxes again and I told her would help and she told me not to tell my mom so of course I told my mom. My mom told me all the low down dirty things my grandma continues to do to her and I pay my grandma’s phone bill which I shouldn’t because she has my 53 yo aunt and her 22 yo son living there. My mom also says my grandma just freely allows them to use the phone because of course they don’t have jobs so they have no phone except for stolen or government phones. The phone bill is only $25, but they can find $25 from somewhere else, because I do not support the mistreatment of the woman who carried me in her belly for 9 months and fed me all that good healthy food I needed to become the beautiful woman that I am today. I do not condone that and I will not financially support it. Oh did I mention that my grandma told my mom that she plans to only put my aunt’s name on the land only after I clearly had a conversation with my grandma and told her I was not putting my hard earned money towards anything that won’t have my name on it and she was quiet when I said that, because I guess she was taught that silence means consent, but it doesn’t when you are dealing with money. Money requires contracts ESPECIALLY when dealing with family and friends. She is in great health and spirits when I see her and hopefully she remains the same, but there is one final thing I want to say. We all have to die one day and it is very important to handle financial and family business before we go, because the last thing anybody wants to deal with is fighting after the death of someone we all love and cherish. So I am happy that I get to understand what is going on before my grandma passes on to the other side and hopefully she has many more healthy days to come, but I will not allow her to embarrass my mom beyond the grave once she is no longer here and doesn’t have to deal with the turmoil.

Why Me!? Crush Canceled

Ughhhhhhh you guys I’m so annoyed. 1st of all idk what would make me think that a man that has been in a relationship for 7 years will risk it all for me. Moreover I wouldn’t want him to risk it all for me. I’m a woman and I know how it feels to be put on the back burner so I wouldn’t want to be the one causing the pain of another woman for my pleasure. Now if he was ready to leave and it had nothing to do with me ok, but that’s not the case. He’s in a “loving” relationship and there is no end in sight so we will conclude that this man is not the one for me.

Flirting over, sub posts over, spiritual contact over, all things over ugh. I don’t like him like that, but as a woman we all know how good it feels to have the attention of a man and I know he also enjoys having my attention being that he’s been committed for 7 years. 7 years is a really long time and more than likely they will get married have kids and all that. I can’t and won’t wedge myself in between anything like that.

What made me come to this final decision is my house mom at one of my clubs. I was telling her I haven’t had sex in so long and I have a crush on this guy on the internet and she immediately shut it down. She told me that I don’t know him which is true, if he’s flirting with me he can’t be a good guy which also has some truth and lastly he just wants attention, because he has a girlfriend and lives in a whole other state. All that being said crush OVER! I can’t you guys. Where is he?! Where is my man.

Every time I like someone and it doesn’t work out I’m just so confused. Not as to why it ended, but just the fact that I’m at square one AGAIN! Its not a big deal, but I’m gonna have to sit on somebody’s face soon. I don’t want to have sex uncommitted anymore, but omg I’m gonna have to make an exception. I need to print out applications for these guys because honey I need this cat purred lol.

You Don’t Even Know Your Power

So you guys know love fuels literally everything in my life. If I’m not in a loving situation I’ll just be alone like I have been a lot, but now I’ve realized my powers. My power is to love and teach and all that, but mainly to love.

I think I haven’t been loved maybe because I didn’t love myself enough and that’s painfully obvious to the guys who have “known” me maybe, but to all future guys meet the new me. The new me knows her worth, she knows her power, she knows her abilities and she is not afraid to be herself. The new me also knows how to say no if its not in my best interest. My “crush” was asking some of his subscribers to some sort of symbol on their twitter handles and of course I would never do that. I am who I am and I am NOT a follower I am a leader. Even if no one is following I am still leading myself to be the best Stripper Notes I can be and not because someone I look up to me is advising me to do so. Not in the way I look up to him and he looks up to me lol. Well these are my powers. The ability to create. Its so weird that people consider this a talent, buy hey if the shoe fits I’ll wear it and SELL it! lol

 

 

Delicate Situations

So I’m single as idk what right now. My feminine energy is pouring out and I’m not feeling the single thing, but I know from experience that’s its better to wait on the right one, because being bored in the past has gotten me into too many situations where I settled for way less than I deserve.

The other day I was at work and I had three glasses of wine I started talking about how I wanted to be in love. My exact words were “*mopey face* I want to be in love*”I know I make the single thing look fun and easy, but I’m tired of it and I want mutual love. What is life without someone you love and loves you back to share it with. I get a lot of stuff done, but I love being in love its always the best time of my life until I realize it was never love for the other person. That’s why I’m taking my time.

The guy I had the feels for has been coming on to me too, but you guys know he has a girlfriend and I’m not interested in being in any kind of drama and I think he knows that. That’s why he flirts with me, because he knows I’m not going to try and threaten his relationship, but I don’t like the idea of being toyed with if I can’t have you.

When it comes to love and chemistry I think we can sense when someone likes us and I know he knows I like him and I know he likes me as well. Its something that I’ve tried to be very delicate an respectful about, but I don’t know his girlfriend so I kinda don’t know what to do. I know I have loyalty to my sisters, family and friends, but a girl i don’t even know? I respect her relationship, but I still like her man lol. All I know is I don’t date guys in relationships and I totally don’t want them breaking up because of me. I don’t feel like those are good vibes.

The other part of me thinks everything happens for a reason and even tho this guy could be the worst guy ever I still have these feelings and you never know where life takes you. I’m almost 25 years old and I have to know what I want at some point and now is the point.

If you guys need a refresher on the guy he’s a youtuber who talks about black problems like colorism, cultural appropriation and love so it’d be very bad of him to entertain me. I also know he lives in New York and I live in Atlanta. I’m an adult and I know it isn’t that easy to pack up and leave, but I would do it for love. The only issue I have is I’d be out of my element and I’d have to have my own place, because you never know how things can go and I don’t want to be flying back to Atlanta with my tail between my legs like I did last year when I wen to go see my ex in San Diego. That was one of he worst emotional experiences ever. I loved San Diego, but I hated being there with him, because I feel like I was tricked into coming and it definitely wasn’t what I thought it was going to be like. I know people say we shouldn’t have expectations and things like that, but we SHOULD! I don’t see anything wrong with having high expectations for the best. We live in such a backwards society where people don’t even want to dream happy dreams in fear of their bubble being busted. Not as far as my ex wanting me, but I feel like he was just trying to play me in general by having me come out there and then act like he doesn’t know why I’m there.  After about 2 of 9 days I was ready to go.  I was so sad, anxious, nauseous, couldn’t eat and just sad all together. I never want to feel that again and I feel like I’ve had enough sadness for a lifetime.

So I know you guys probably think I’m crazy, to have a crush on someone I don’t even know, and barely communicate with, but I can feel us communicating spiritually.

I woke up at 5:00 am and I saw he was live so I went in to see what they were doing. As soon as I got on he got off and When I went live I did the same thing. I know he doesn’t want to play with fire and its fair of me to not want to play with it either. His lives are usually pretty chill and he usually has other people on there with him, but I haven’t seen his girlfriend on there which I think she should be from time to time if she is a big influence on his life. I think love should be the greatest inspiration and when I am in love I like to be inspired by my love. I can imagine how intimidated she must be by all the women who lust over and follow her boyfriend, and as a woman I kinda know how it feels to date someone who is so involved with other women.

As a woman who is growing I know love is important, but I also firmly know that I must focus on my own dreams and not let any man stop that and if a man really loves me he will be in full support of my journey the way I am in support of his even if he can’t see my dream and I can’t see his I still think its important to grow and support each other. I know a lot of women can lose themselves in relationships its happened to me many times and this time around I’m not letting myself go that easily so if a man whats me he has to want all of me.

As for this crush ( I hate calling it a crush) I’m not sure what I’ll do. I don’t mind the flirting that’s cool, but to entertain anything else may be a waste of time.

To be fair he doesn’t know I dance and I won’t be telling him, because I don’t think that should be up for discussion since I won’t be quitting for someone who is already in an established relationship and lives hundreds of miles away. I hate discussing the topic anyway. People think its this glorious thing and yes it can be liberating, but until someone lives this life I don’t think they have a valid idea of what I feel I go thru when I choose to do this.

I can’t wait until I have that person that I can confide in about my stress of dancing and them comfort me and tell me I’m smart enough to do whatever I want to do, but I don’t even have friends and family who tell me these things. The people that do know I dance are either jealous, because they think I’m not struggling or they romanticize it as if I’m a queen and all men bow to my feet.      The reality is I work very hard I’m a full time student who took six classes, I take care of myself and I deserve everything I work for. If someone wants to walk in my shoes to see how hard I work to get what I want without any complaints then they can do that. I’m not into holding anyone’s hand if someones wants to be about this life them they need to do it alone like I had to do. I definitely didn’t have anyone holding my hand.

I love you guys and thanks for reading. I’ll be working very hard for the next two weeks for my birthday.

I won’t be getting anyone any lavish mother’s day or birthday gifts like I did in the past. This month is all about me.

I Think We Need To Have a Talk About My Morals

So I got my permit renewed at one club and and I worked there Friday and Saturday. I aways tell you guys not to go to work (at a strip club if you are in a sour mood, because people come there to have fun, nit be high strung so to say the least I wasn’t feeling it that much. I’m also very thin frame for those of you who don’t know I am not thick at all  I am about 5’7 100 lbs with great proportions and I say that to say I GET COLD EASILY!  I get so cold so fast its not even a game I always always need some kind of covering because I get cold lol. So its May, but we are having cool weather here in Atlanta so its cold out and inside too depending on where you go they may have the air conditioner on instead of the heat which is so backwards. I’m for sure we had the air on and I was just not feeling it! If i wasn’t a decent dancer I probably would’ve mad nothing and thank goodness ‘m good with finances too, because when you don’t feel like working that directly affects your life. I definitely don’t mind working, because I like the life that I live and it has to be maintained. I’m also a business student and I have many things going for myself.

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So back to this blog post, so I didn’t feel like working! ugh! It was so cold and I just wasn’t feeling it. I think I also slipped up and got used to fast easy money! Do not play yourselves, nothing good in life comes that fast. I made A LOT of money that week I worked 2 days I was so happy, but it wasn’t the steady average. and lets be real yall know I do not have sex, no blow jobs, they don’t give me oral and none of that, but I did give this guy a handjob and I normally do not do that and that was my first time ever, but I did it because the money was so worth it. Call me whatever you want, but a hand job for $600 sounds like a deal lol.

I’m single and no man who I’ve ever had sex with ever did anything nice for me at all and men give me money just to SEE me naked, literally for me to allow them to see me naked. One guy I danced for last night even knows my family, he was an old white guy I’m sure a racists, but loves young black girls smh.  He was weird af and awkward around me so he was an easy one. The handjob guy lived in a really nice condo, he was a mid forty something white man who is bored with his wife and I’m sure she’s just staying for security or maybe she loves him idk. I met another guy in there last night who is dating a woman who is not his type, but he’s dating her so he can live with her. That is beyond bummy and he was drooling over some girl with nipple rings.These men are complete liars and they are too coward to go after what they want. Skinny men like thick girls because they are the opposite and most big guys love small women for some reason, but things change. This fat guy who wanted the skinny girl is too lazy to even fix himself up to get with a woman like that.

I need to tighten up my morals again and not think that fast things can get me a lot of money, because that’s not even guaranteed and who wants to be a tool forever? I can’t wait until my businesses are off the ground and I can just relax. I’ve cut wayyyyyyyyy down on my drinking you guys have no idea lol. I’m tired of feeling crappy. One to three drinks is enough anything else is alcoholic, because really 3 drinks a day is a bit much. I had three glasses of white wine Friday and one margarita Saturday and I’m tired from those. I need to easssssssssse back into the party life lol jk I’m focused and this is still a means to an end 😉

 

Thanks for reading and I’d also like to let you guys know f ways you can support me and entertain you 🙂

  1. Let me know if you would like me to create a Patreon where I would post anonymous podcasts, take questions, tell stories, give you my weekly rundown.
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  3. If you are into fetishes and things of that nature I also sell some of my well worn heels, shoes, socks and anything else can possibly up for discussion.

 

Pain

PAIN!

What is pain?

Pain is people only calling you when they want something and forcing you to be a cold bitch!

Pain is knowing you have no real friends. Everybody actually wants something from you. Even your parent want to constantly know you major in college just to secure a spot in your future pockets. Never mind I have been working for my own money since I was 16 years old (really 13). If I wanted something in my life and my parents couldn’t get it I worked for it myself. Raising the children right and they will go not astray! But if you barely raise the children and they go astray don’t think you can shape their life at 25 years old. To be honest I’m an adult and I don’t need or want friends and family constantly commenting on a life they add no actual value to.

I know a lot of you feel where I m coming from.

Pain is wanting to be a bride, but falling susceptible to pre-marital sex so now you feel like damaged goods. Thanks christian mom and Muslim dad who only wore your religion as a name brand soul! Also thanks to the lack of real men we have in America. I shouted out my international readers earlier and what you guys see on tv as Americans is worse in reality. America is a luxurious place, but its also a greedy, slimy, place. There is no such thing as a real friend in America. I actually believe people in America (especially the black people) have been so brainwashed over the years. If you ever make an American friend that may not be a friend first of all, and if you think it is watch them very carefully and treat them how they treat you. People in the country are usually motivated by monetary gain. People don’t want to be friends with someone who does not have that potential and I find that very scary. How can you not be paranoid when you know that every time your phone rings people want something from you! Now its not like I don’t know how to say no, it just very exhausting to constantly deal with these people. And this is why I find it easier to be alone. I’m more efficient, creative, confident and I can relax around myself. People can literally be so annoying. Americans are used to being entertained 24/7 so I don’t even think most American would know what real is!

If you have one good friend you are lucky!

Also I’ve learned how to treat friendships and relationships.

#1 Friends ARE NOT family! They are loyal to their family! One of the biggest mistake you could make is treating a “friend” like family and realizing they aren’t even a real friends.

Pain is having to constantly check mother fuckers because they are so fucking annoying with the stupid beating around the bush questions when you know they just called to ask for a favor. Goodbye!

You know I look up a lot of psychology and I call bull shit!

If you want to know a good Piece of psychology remember this.

Everybody has and agenda so don’t let them use you to fill it!

Instead fill you own agenda!

Fill your agenda to the point where you only come across people who are only rooting for you and all the jealous sneak haters will fall off.

If its anything I’ve learned from choosing to switch my major to business its trust no one.

If you have some dreams, hobbies, projects or anything positive and progressive going on in your life keep it secret!

Its crazy how strippernotes and dancing are the two biggest secrets of my life and I chose to record it on a blog. An anonymous blog. I love strippernotes not only because I thinks its hella awesome, but for the most part its a secret. Its a part of me that some people could never imagine. They’ve never seen it with their own two eyes, but it happened and happens.

I’ve really been considering a pod cast, but idk what to talk about. I think I need a space first, because I can barely get youtube videos done with this set up.

Lastly I want to give you some tips for channeling your pain and turning it into gain!

  1. Humans want to avoid pain at all possible costs, but pain is a part of life.
  2. You can always turn your pain into joy.
  3. Associate NOT achieving your goals with pain instead of associating pain with a person.

Just remember friends and people you are related to shouldn’t only call and want you around when its beneficial for them. If those are real family members and relatives the will ask you how you are doing selflessly and actually care enough to also be happy for you or empathize with you. You may not be able to help someone’s situation, but you can empathize with them. And empathizing with them will help them not to feel so alone and it could even help them progress.

International Stripper Notes Readers!

When I look at my home page I am so shocked to see readers from so many countries! I love this! I can’t believe you guys take the time t read my blog I absolutely love it. If you guys would like to ask me any questions please leave a comment on this post because I’d love to hear what sparked your interest in reading my blog and what you think about what you’ve read so far. Idk why I imagine all f my readers being male, but I know there’s lots of women reading and I’d love to hear what you think especially.