I know we are on this wave of positivity in this day and time, but is it possible to be positive 24 hours a day 7 days a week? If anyone has mastered this positivity thing you guys thinks its me right? Yes I know lol, but I’ve been hit with a little depression while I’m on my trip. I’m in San Diego right now and yes I’m making the “Same Ol Mistakes”  I also told you guys I’m a slight glutton for pain lol. I’ve been having weird dreams, emotions, and lastly I’m sad to say that I havent been eating. I used to think I did this on purpose and I did use to, but now it absolutely not a purposeful thing. My team of psychiatrist, nutritionists and blah blah blah helped me understand that it’s a chemical imbalance in my brain that I have to work to make balanced. Balance of emotions is my motivation for this post. I have realized once again that you cannot and should not be positive all the time. Life is about balance and you must have a balanced range of emotions. Just like everyone on earth I want to be happy all the time and I worked extremely hard to indeed be happier more than in a deep rest also known as depression. I’m 24 years old and I am clearly an old soul so sometimes I forget that life is not meant to be perfect. There must absolutely be a balance. Do NOT resist resistance. Let you emotions flow freely and understand that they must be the way they are.

The issue now is being aware, consciously knowing that the balance is happening and allowing your soul and physical body to be vulnerable to these changes. There is no other way. Also take control of your life and your emotions. A lot f the time we fee depressed because we simply are trying to live up to the standards of someone else and gong against our own better judgement and happiness. You are the god of your life and you should always be in control of the way you want to live. Do what makes you happy and not what you think will make someone else love you more, especially if its destroying your emotions. There is no getting around the fact that you may piss some people off and understand that it is THEIR problem not yours. People will test you to see if you are who you say you really are. I AM.

The last point I will make is DO YOUR RESEARCH. Search for answers as to why you are doing what you are doing and let them be reasons that are more than just surface reasons. Let your decisions have meaning. I’m not perfect, but everything I do comes with a reason. I still have tons of research to do also and I’m learning everyday. You also have to be very aware of other people’s level of awareness, because sometimes your favorite person isn’t as aware of the world as you think they or want them to be no matter what experiences they have had. I cannot listen to people who are not living the lifestyle I aspire to be living and neither can you life is too short for that.