I Quit Stripping, Threw My Dildo Away, Have Ventured Into Sex Work From Home *Surprise*!
What’s Up My B Love Leeeeeeees LMAO jk. I miss you guys tho. If you have been folioing this blog for any length of time you know that stripping was always a means to an end for me. I dealt with stripping, but it wasn’t something that I totally liked.
I do believe that I mentioned racism in the strip club amongst other things like me being in school and having to maintain my life. Stripping was just not making me happy. I felt locked in a cage. I felt that I had to lie to every man I dated which I did. I was terrified of telling them what I did for work, so I didn’t. I was not able to maintain the double life. Nobody has a perfect personal life, but I felt like I didn’t have any personal life. You simply cannot maintain a relationship on lies no matter how realistic it sounds its just not possible. After the last failed attempt at dating I fell terribly depressed and that was it for stripping for me. I went back one day and actually made a lot of money that day. Somewhere around $1,200. Then I was debilitated. I just couldn’t pick myself up to go. I did not work for the entire month of October.
During that month I quit smoking weed which was terribly difficult and I made some revelations about my life. I actually felt so lowly of myself that I did not believe I could have a regular job that would pay my bills so I challenged myself. I applied for tons of jobs and landed a really great job that allowed me to cover all of my bills and more for November. That job did not work out for me due to a toxic work environment so I prayed to God as I have been doing regularly and God never fails. I landed 2 more jobs. One was a great stepping stone and the most recent on is exactly what I prayed for. Tomorrow will actually be my 2nd official day. I am so grateful for God and all the support I have had from a really great person I met at the strip club a few years ago. Its really crazy how you see who is really there for you when cannot be there for yourself. We are not in this world alone, and we all need someone sometimes. I do have new views on love, but I am for sure that stripping is not something that a high quality man is going to deal with or take seriously.
I have zero regrets about quitting stripping and I may strip in the future who knows, but for right now I am very very happy to be doing something with myself that does not involve getting naked. I even tried camping and that was disgusting to me. I did not like that at all. I am in a new line of sex work that I actually do enjoy very much. It has its pros and cons, but for me the pros outweigh the cons all the way. The pros being I can do them from home, I can be anonymous, I can build mass clientele and I can make money while I am sleep or away from home doing other things. I did have to invest some money to learn this, and it was so worth it. I should have invested in January of 2019, but I was stubborn and thought I could learn everything on my own. I don’t care who you are you need to learn to invest in yourself if there is something lucrative that you want to benefit from on mass level. I actually had no idea what I would do after stripping, but God always has a plan for those of us who believe and are willing to do the work. I have proven and will continue to prove that I am more than willing to do the work to be free financially and otherwise.
My little heartbreak was about 4 months ago and I am feeling much better and not ready for a relationship at all, but totally ready to start back dating. Now I know that having my guard up is not a bad thing, but it is ver necessary. My mom gave be a book and wrote a quote in it from the bible that sticks with me. “Guard your heart for it is the well spring of life.” I did not understand this quote until i left my heart unguarded and boy was that a mistake I will never make again. I’m also learning that when I am interested in somebody how important it is to be 100% honest. I don’t view being honest as not guarding my heart, but actually guarding it. When I was being dishonest I was trying to make men fall in love with someone that I was not truly and I was actually breaking my own heart trying to be someone that I was not. My personal business is not everyone’s business, but if I want someone to get to know me I can’t completely hide myself hoping to change along the way. That’s just not realistic.
Well that’s all for today. Please stay tuned and be looking for some very juicy blog posts as this blog is about to take a very sharp turn that I am excited about. If not then I will definitely inform you on where to fund my new juicy material that I am sure many of you will love.